Okay Fine Whatever: The Year I Went from Being Afraid of Everything to Only Being Afraid of Most Things

Hameister, former host and head writer of the Portland radio show Live Wire!, undertakes an amusing, if perhaps overly insular, rumination on various experiences she has subjected herself to in order to combat severe anxiety. Those with similar conditions will find her tone encouraging throughout, as when she describes the reason for taking on her “Okay Fine Whatever” project: “I thought if I could create a situation in which I was forced to try new things... I might actually become braver... I might even eventually become a badass.” She describes a wide variety of small boundary-pushing experiences, including 90 minutes spent in a sensory deprivation tank, forays into polyamory, and an evening at a vegan strip club, which she leaves feeling “far dirtier for pretending to be ‘chill’ than I did for watching naked women gyrate all night.” She also shares personal reflections, most notably on her desire for male approval. Her amused, sometimes snarky writing style will surely resonate with young hipsters but seems less likely to reach a wider readership. Nonetheless, Hameister’s frankness about her struggles with anxiety may prove helpful to readers facing their own internal confrontations. Agent: Laurie Fox, Linda Chester Agency. (July)