Manboobs: A Memoir of Musicals, Visas, Hope, and Cake

In this sterling debut, painter Aijazuddin combines blazing wit with heartbreaking candor as he recounts his path toward self-acceptance as a gay Pakistani. Growing up in 1990s Lahore, Aijazuddin took an early shine to musicals, Disney princesses, and Barbie dolls, all while battling schoolyard insults about his weight and resulting “moon-tits.” As he realized he was gay, experimenting sexually with a friend and growing close with another closeted teen, Aijazuddin dreamed of escaping to comparatively liberal North America. Much of the memoir sees him ping-ponging between Pakistan, Canada, and the U.S.: he attended college in Montreal shortly after 9/11, where he faced xenophobia and struggled to come out of the closet, then returned to Pakistan, where his shame compounded. After obtaining a U.S. visa in 2015, he moved to New York City, where a series of relationships helped him learn to “stop loving in the shadows.” Aijazuddin’s prose is playful but sincere, marrying quips (“I was always a bird of paradise in a nest of sparrows”) with powerful insights (“Hyphens are the price of my admission through the gates of the American dream”). The result is a stirring account of coming of age and coming out. Agent: Sam Chidley, Karpfinger Agency. (Aug.)

Correction: A previous version of this review misspelled the author’s last name.